“Are you pregnant?” No, it’s just fat.

So, I was at the gym this morning busting my butt and this girl comes up to me and asks me if I’m pregnant. I smiled and looked at her and said “No, I’m just a big girl. It’s just fat.” I can tell she was a little embarrassed and I can tell that the conversation that she thought she was going to have with me went right down the tubes. I’m sure she planned on telling me how amazing I was for working out so hard being pregnant and how she probably could never do it herself, but instead, I ruined her day by telling her that the “baby” I was carrying was conceived by eating junk.

Now, this isn’t the first time it’s happened to me. It happed about 10 years ago in the mall when I was about 20 lbs lighter and a size 6. I actually had someone rub my belly and ask me when I was due. Seriously!

Here’s the thing, I have what you call a Buddha belly or rice belly right in the front. Even when I was a skinny size 4, I’ve always had this little pouch. Now, at my current size 10 frame, that pouch is a little bigger I can understand where someone might think I was “a little” pregnant depending on what clothes I was wearing. It happens, I get it, but good Lord people, you NEVER ask a woman if she’s pregnant!

Does it bother me? Well of course it does! I would LOVE to have flat abs! Back when I was a bag of bones, I never had flat abs. I always had that pouch. It’s how I was made. Funny thing is, when I was a size 4 I thought I was fat as a cow. Imagine that? I’m 5’8” 133 lbs, size 4 and I thought I was FAT all because I that stupid little pouch. I drove my husband nuts by pinching and grabbing it and saying how fat I was. He would tell me I was beautiful and I would shun him for it. It was quite embarrassing really. If this girl had asked me “are you pregnant” back then, I probably would’ve gone off the deep end. I had a very poor self-image and I hated the way I looked and hated my body.

Now, would I like to cut the fat and size down? Of course, and I’m working on it but I’m working on it in a healthy way. Do I ever think I’ll work my way down to a size 4? Nope, not a chance. I wasn’t healthy at size 4, but I would like to drop about 15 pounds. Actually, let me correct that. I’d like to drop my body fat percentage rate down to about 18% or 19%. Weight means nothing if you muscle up.

Since I started running, I have learned that you don’t have to be skinny to be fit. Don’t get me wrong, I think obesity in America is outrageous and I do think in general we need to cut the fat, but I have ran marathons side by side with men and women who are overweight but run every step of those 26.2 miles. They have more stamina and endurance than a lot of the “skinny” people I know.

When I look in the mirror now, I see the same body that I saw in the mirror when I was a size 4 as I always saw myself on the husky side even when I was a bag of bones. But the amazing thing is, while I’m still annoyed with that pouch I carry, I’m happier with my body and what it does for me. I am stronger now than I ever was. My size 4 body couldn’t lift the weights that I do. My size 4 body couldn’t have run all of the marathons, half marathons, and all of the other races that I have ran over the last two years. My size 4 body couldn’t survive this ultramarathon training. But, my size 10 body can….even with my Buddha belly. And while I used to say to myself that I would give anything for that perfect body, I can’t say that now. My imperfect body has given me more than any perfect body can.

love my body

8 thoughts on ““Are you pregnant?” No, it’s just fat.

  1. No way!!! I’m sure that young girl neglected to tell you that she has a severe case of Myopia… If she though you had a pouch, Buddha belly or rice belly, whatever you like to call it! It is still way smaller than most US population! Don’t believe me? Just go shop in your local Walmart, and 99% of the ladies there would be having twins, triplets and quadruplets use that young girls size of measurement.

    You are so right, fit is not measured by weight or size. Not many can claim they have done 5K, 10K, half marathon, and absolutely a very very small population even attempted full Marathon. Which you have done, “ALL” no less!

    Again, I stand by what I said in an earlier reply- you are one “Bad-ass”

  2. I once had a girl comment rather rudely that my “butt was covered in sweat.” Which is what its supposed to be doing when you are busting butt at the gym! I just responded, “oh, really? NICE! I’m feeling the burn today!” Then I put my headphones in and kept on, keeping on. Some people just don’t have a clue.

  3. If I had a dollar for every time someone asked me that…just kidding, its only happened a few times. I find it to be rude. I’m the same as you, I was a size 4, 125 lbs and still had a little pooch. I’ve learned to laugh it off, but it is frustrating when you work so hard!

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